From no money to traveling the world for free. In 2014 I flew from Amsterdam to Hawaii, from Los Angeles to Sydney. To wherever I wanted, whenever I wanted. First class. Business class. Any class. And I wasn't a flight attendant. How this all happened? It started with a good conversation with money.
Now sit back and relax. I will tell you all about it.
It's April 2013. I'm surfing the web to see if it's possible to go to a teacher who's message I really like. He's based in far away Seattle. But to my surprise I see he's coming for four days to Italy in August. Oh my god! Possibilities! My heart jumps.
And then it sinks.
On my bank account I found only enough for two months of rent. No way I could justify to buy 1. a ticket to Italy and 2. a ticket to that 4-days event.
I sighed. Feeling locked up in my own life. I'd been working now for 12 years. I'd worked hard and I'd always delivered quality - how is it possible that there is still no financial buffer in my bankaccount?! Feeling frustrated I did the only thing I could do in that moment. And now it comes:
I decided to have a word with money.
Like a family constellation, done by myself alone. Lazy version: sitting on the couch, eyes closed. This is how the conversation went.
- Me, bit agitated: 'Okay money, where are you?'
- Money answered straight away: 'I'm here!!! Right beside you!!!'
- Very funny money, but that's not what I meant. I meant: 'Where ARE you, like IN my bank account?'
- Money again: 'I'm here!!! Right beside you!!!'
Whatever I tried, money would give me the same answer: I'm here, beside you. So I decided to go with that and have a closer look at my couch companion. If I had to describe money I would say that it's like a hyperactive boy. Super excited with a total lack of empathy. Young and happy, ready for the next adventure, not busy at all with my financial deadlock.
- I continued in a calm way: 'Okay, so, I've been waiting for you, but I just don't understand where you have been all these years.'
- Money, jumping up and down: 'I am here!!! And I'm waiting for you!!!'
- Me: 'But I've been waiting for you...'
- Money, almost screaming: 'I'm waiting for you!!!'
- Me: 'No, but, I've been waiting for you.'
- Money, wiggling his legs: 'I'm waiting for you!!!'
This continued for a while, me waiting for money, money waiting for me.
Bit by bit, it finally got to me what money was telling me: I go where you go. If I wasn't going anywhere, money wasn't going anywhere either.
Till that day I had lived with the conviction that I need money first before I could buy or do anything. But in that moment I dropped that whole idea. Something clicked. I surrendered to what money was telling me.
With a firm voice I told money, or I challenged money: 'Okay, Money, if this is true, that you go where I go, I am going to book a return ticket to Italy, buy a ticket to that event AND I'm going to do that NOW!'
So I did. I even decided to take it a step further.
I added a 10-day Vipassana retreat in Florence. With some days in between and after the events I would be in Italy for 3 weeks. No idea how I was going to pay for all of this.
But hey! Let's just see how money was going to do this...
Fast forward to August 2013 >>
Money kept its promise. For 21 days I was carried by Italy. I met many amazing new people. I got taken on unexpected journeys to the most wonderful places. (I will tell you all about this later on.)
And it got even better. Half a year later a friend I met in the 4-days event called me up with the biggest gift ever. She had arranged for me that I could fly the world for free for a year with an American flight company. Anytime, anywhere. First class, business class, any class - it was all lying at my feet. (More later.)
The world opened up to me.
And this all started back then in April on the couch, eyes closed. That night money gave me the guts to just go. And the trust he will always follow me.
Fast forward to May 2020 >>
Money is still sitting right beside me. And as I write this, I realize I'd much rather have him move first. To be sure that I have the money for what I want. But it's often simply not the case. And I see now how this pushes me to the one and only thing I can do in my life: to follow my dreams. To take action before I feel financially secure. To go for what I truly want. And trust blindly that money will follow.
With a lot of joy,
PS Picture above was taken at the airport of Bologna at the end of my three weeks in Italy. I remember getting on board with a weird feeling. Like: WHERE?! have I just been?! WHAT?! exactly has happened?! As if I had spend a timeless time in a world that was completely new to me.
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THE ART OF BEING HM DE GROOT
On one hand creating is a matter of just doing. Simple is that. But on the other hand it takes a lot to get to that point of creation. Besides techniques and materials it's a lot about... yourself. It goes up and down. From being in the flow to being convinced it all makes no sense. From exhilarating discoveries and breakthroughs to lonely moments in the endless desert of emptiness.